What a fucking beautiful album. They’re a trio made in heaven, my melancholy gals. Every line is so meaningful and honest. Sonically simple at times, it’s the lyrics I’m here for.
I can definitely see how much influence my mother in law has had on me over the last five years. Either directly or through my boyfriend. You can't escape your parents, and despite the negative connotation of the term "in-law," your parents shape who you are. My mother-in-law is such a kind-hearted person, and I'm grateful for the person she raised. Meeting a partner's family is an opportunity to gain insight into their upbringing and understand the complexities that make them who they are. We all carry the traits of our parents, whether we like it or not, and embracing that connection can bring us closer to the people we love.
It’s the first song I heard from the record. It’s so big and definitely announces itself from the start. It’s chaos with its soft punk vibe. Engaging in uncontrolled impulses is definitely a feeling you get living in a quiet town. I remember running around as a child starting fires with my friends as we try to get an old motorbike running. It may seem simple and rough from the outside be we had such fun. The song brings back memories of asking my dad for money and petrol for our adventures, and he never questioned our antics. I remember we once taped down the accelerator of an old moped and put it up on bricks, it didn’t take long for the engine to explode and catch fire. The simplicity and roughness of our childhood may seem trivial, but it was full of fun and excitement.
I feel like I lost my best friend. I wonder if she thought of us as best friends? I’ve had a little cry to this song a few times now. She always got me, “I can't hide from you like I hide from myself”. If I was overthinking and spiralling myself out she would always tell me straight and would know just what to say. She was always down to do the spontaneous shit no one else would want to do. What I would give to go back and change what happened, I don’t think we were really in the right place at the time to deal with the distance that had grown between us. “Who won the fight? I don't know. We're not keeping score”, what changed I can only guess. I was definitely an arse when I shouldn’t have been. I really grieved for over a year after, I think I still am now. I hope one day we can go back to the way we were, what I’d give for that. If we just sat down and talked, I think anything is possible. She'll always hold a special place in my heart, as she helped shape who I am today.
I wish I knew why I was so depressed right now. I feel like I had reasons before but this time is different, I just don’t have the energy anymore. I just want to stop for a bit. It can feel like a constant struggle to maintain a façade of strength for your partner, while inside you feel completely drained. “Spinning out about things that haven't happened”, my anxiety is also sky-high right now, and I feel like everyone is watching and talking about me. How am I meant to be there for my boyfriend if I don’t have the energy? We still have fun and I feel safe with him, but something just isn't right. “I don't know why I am the way I am”
I love music hence this blog. I can’t shut up about it, ask anyone around me. But some songs are just special and sharing those with someone is so meaningful to me. It’s a great way to show someone how you're feeling and the inner workings of your mind without having to say anything. However, exposing myself in such a vulnerable way can be frightening, and I often worry about pushing people away if I’m my true self, anxiety hey. “You said, "I might like you less now that you know me so well””. But deep down, I know that my friends love me for who I am, faults and all. , it’s impossible to portray an act the whole time and you can definitely build a picture over time. Your faults are what makes you who you are and I think we need to remember that sometimes, “That’s how the light gets in”
